I Need a Vacation

At the 3rd Power Summit, we outlined the phases of SELLOUT pre-production, and the associated deadlines for each phase. In order to have copies printed in time for our appearance at the BWRC in June, we had to pick up the pace. I needed to finish my content edit, ASAP.

I was given a deadline of Sunday, March 14th for completing my edits, and in order to hit that mark, I pretty much had to embrace SELLOUT tunnel vision. What that means is that in every spare moment, I had to be reading. On the bus. In the waiting room at the doctor’s office. Until 2am pretty much every night. All other areas of my life faded away as I hunkered down for this last push. Family gathering in San Ramon? Sorry fam, I’m working. Dinner with a girlfriend? Sorry hon, I’m working. Set the VCR to record Grey’s Anatomy, cause, yup, you guessed it, I’m working.

Now mind you, I’ve been experiencing fatigue and burnout for weeks. I mean, even the most mild-tempered, peace-loving individual is going to get cranky when they realize they are spending virtually every waking moment, on average 6 hours a day (in addition to my day job), hustlin’. I knew this venture was going to require dedication and commitment when I signed on, but to be honest, the reality of it is wearing on me. Especially when things I deem more important (like spending time with my newborn nephew) get pushed aside. There are moments when I wonder if it’s all worth it. I mean, isn’t this supposed to be fun and rewarding? My partners may be having fun, but me, saddled with the most time-consuming of all the start-up tasks… Not so much.

But at the end of the day, I’m a trooper. I finished the SELLOUT edits around 5pm on Sunday, which left me with 6 hours to eat, attend a virtual power summit, and complete the final homework assignment for my Editing course (which I also got done, with seven minutes to spare). Yes, it always feels great to have met a major deadline; I might have partook in some sort of celebratory ritual if I hadn’t been so exhausted.

So what’s next on the to-do list? Take Care of Me. As much as I hate to admit it, I’m not Superwoman, and if I’m to be of any use to my partners, I MUST carve out some dedicated time for the three Rs (Rest, Relaxation, & Rejuvenation) to address this burnout issue. I need a solid 3-day span (at least!) of not thinking about anything related to TPC. That’s probably not going to happen, lol, but the reality is – somehow, I need to find my joy again, re-engage with the excitement of what it means to be embarking on this entrepreneurial enterprise with my two favorite guys. And I could definitely use a freaking massage. Hey partners – do we have any money in the budget for a spa retreat?